Y'all know how we left off lets cont.
Bey: Jay hunny I know *starts to cry and rubs his head* I know but God does everything for a reason maybe we weren't ready to be parents
Jay: No Beyonce *gets up off the floor* everything won't be alright what if you can never conceive a child now because of my selfish act and I know how much we both want children and I only want them with you and now*tears up again* that....may never happen *breaksdown and this causes Bey to breakdown too. they both jus cry and hold each other for a few mins and finally Bey speaks*
Bey: Jay listen ok
Jay:*wipes his eyes* Yes Bey
Bey:*looks into his eyes* We're gonna have a child one day ok
Jay: But how you can't *bey interrupts*
Bey: SHHH stop that ok stop speaking negative and only speak positive from now on ok
Jay: Ok
Bey: Good I'm goin to walk again one day real soon and then I will run, and swim, and be back on stage jus you wait nd see my God has never let me down do you hear me and we will have our own baby together jus you and I you hear me
Jay: Yes I do
Bey: Jus you wait and see I have forgiven you of this and I have moved on and now my future is bright
Jay: You still wanna be with me after all this
Bey: At first no but over time I've learned that we all make mistakes and we all have our own crosses to carry but mama keeps us in church and I've spoken to God many times about this and he told me to forgive and move on and I have I'm starting fresh
Jay: Can we jus start over
Bey: I was thinking that but on one condition
Jay: Anything Bey
Bey: You have to go to church with me every sunday morning then afterwards we can still have our date nights
Jay: I promise anything else
Bey: And all my doctor appointments too you must be present
Jay: Got it
Bey: Good now call your mother
Jay: She's not talking to me
Bey: Oh I know but call her anyway
Jay: Fine *he calls his mom*
MG: *phone is ringing and the caller i.d. says "dumbass son"* IGNORE
Jay: See Bey she ignored me
Bey: Oh well lets take a pic then and send it to her
*so they take a pic and send it to Mama Gloria and she called back immediately*
MG: WHAT ARE YOU DOIN OVER THERE WITH HER????
Jay: Mom it's cool she called me over
MG: I don't believe you put my daughter on the phone
Jay: here she wants to talk to you
Bey: *takes the phone* hey mama
MG: Hey puddin is he lyin did u really invite him over there
Bey: Yes mama I did
MG: Oh but I thought y'all couldn't see each other for 6 months its only been about 4 almost 5
Bey: I know but I talked to God and he told me to forgive and move on that a miracle is coming my way
MG: Now that I understand so your talking to him so that means we all will start back some kind of communication
Bey: Thats great but he's on serious punishment
MG: GOOD!!!
Bey: Yes he has to go to church every Sunday and take me to my dr's appts and whatever else I need he has to take care of it
MG: Way to go I will be over tomorrow to check on you baby mama loves you hand him the phone so I can curse him out
Bey: *cracks up* mama you are so crazy ok and i love you too *hand jay the phone* here ya go she wanna curse you out
Jay:*with that shame face on* Dam *grabs the phone* He...hello
MG: Ok she forgave you good but you not off the hook yet I'm sure she don't trust you yet does she
Jay: Um Lemme ask, Bey do you trust me
Bey: Hell no but i'm willing to give you a chance to earn that back
Jay: Oh nah ma she said
MG: I know what the hell she said I heard her say it but you listen here boy if you jus so happen hurt a hair on her head its gon be you needing a wheel chair do you understand me
Jay: Yes ma'am I do
MG: Good now I gotta go bye
Jay: Bye
*he hangs up the phone with her and jus sits with a blank stare*
Bey: *notices* You ok
Jay: ya I'm fine I jus heard a side of my mother I never thought I'd hear
Bey: Oh
Jay: Ya she said if I hurt a single hair on your body I will need a wheel chair
Bey*bursts out laughing*
Jay: that is not funny
Bey: I wonder what she gon do lets call her back and say u slapped me
Jay: that shit is not funny I'm not about to play with you
Bey:*cracking up* Oh gosh that was funny but I'm jus playin you know this is the first time I smiled actually laughed since everything happened
Jay: really Julez hasn't made you smile or laugh
Bey: nope
Jay: Solo
Bey: Nope
Jay: Angie, ty, julius
Bey: nope, nope, nd u know julius bout as fun as a camels ass
Jay: *cracks up* You still got it ma
Bey: Here you go with that ma again
Jay: Oh sorry wait we gotta start all the way over
Bey: Yes
Jay: Ok I understand but can I have a kiss for old times sake
Bey: Hmmm.............yaaaaaaaaaaaaa NO!!!
Jay: Aw come on don't be like that
Bey: No Shawn and I mean it
Jay: Ok I understand that but I will do anything jus to be with you
Bey: Awe so sweet
*they both jus smile at each other and sit back and watch tv*
Bey:*I never thought in a million years I'd be sitting here with the man of my dreams paralyzed because of him yet still in love with him. Some will say i'm crazy or taking him back but he makes me happy he's the only one I wanna be with my heart and soul belongs to his. I know we are gonna make it and we are gonna hear some shit but fuck them they don't have what i have a loving God, family, and husband who is willing to do whatever it takes to make me happy and he has made a fool of himself and my grandpa always told me "Beyonce you find yourself that will make a fool of himself for you, you find yourself a love for a life time" and trust me Jay is a total ass but even all ass's deserve a second chance and he's suffered long enough with me and the media can kiss our ass's now about my family I know they will have something to say but when it comes to matters of the heart well of my heart it belongs to Shawn Corey Carter always and forever Mrs. Shawn Corey Carter.
Jay:*Man oh man God you are so GOOD!! I know she said she forgave me but I'm not stupid its gonna be a while before she fully forgives and I know its gon be a struggle from here on out but I'm wiling to make it work you gave us a second chance and a fresh start is what we need she is my wife the one u designed for me and I was fool to let my anger get the best of me it will never happen again. I promise to be at every service not jus Sundays. Jay you almost lost her do you remember what you said the night right before the fight you said you will never hurt again and then u did the unthinkable. *his mind was back eating him alive* you stupid fool, man shut up ugh *Jay was fighting his conscious and Bey could sense it*
Bey: Jay its ok what done is done and we are moving on stop fighting yourself baby ok I forgave you and God forgave you so everything is gonna be fine baby jus breathe
Jay: You can sense that somethin was wrong me
Bey: Yes thats how I knew you were sincere about your apology I know you baby inside and out I jus didn't know the part of you that got angry
Jay: I didn't either baby and that part of me is gon never will we argue and yell again
Bey: yes if and when we have an agreement lets talk reasonably and calmly to each other cuz you yelling and screaming is not acceptable and I'm too small for that
Jay: That sounds like a plan but I honestly won't be arguing with you anytime soon
Bey: Good lets jus watch tv I'm tired of talking and crying
Jay: What you wanna watch
Bey: doesn't matter *flips thru the channels* aye Friday bout to come on
Jay: Ok I need a good laugh
Bey: Me too *looks at Jay* Shawn
Jay: *looks at Bey* Yes
Bey: I am still in love with you always and forever
Jay: I am too Mrs. Carter
*Bey kisses Jay slowly and passionately for a few mins*
Bey: *smiles and blushes*I still get butterflies after all these years
Jay: *smiles back* I do too and we can both make each other blush too
Bey: can I lay on your lap its starting to hurt sitting up
Jay: Sure can
Bey: Thanks oh and can you life my legs for me I can't
Jay: Got and I know you can't don't have to keep sayin it
Bey: Oh sorry
Jay: *kisses her again* your fine babe
*they enjoy the movie and half way thru the movie Mama Tina and Solo nem come back home and sees them in the living room watching tv*
Solo:*bein messy* Sol y'all made up huh
Bey: Shut up I don't wanna hear your mouth or anyone else jus leave us alone please
Solo: Fine I'm gone holla if u need anythin
Jay: I got it don't worry bout her
*that made Bey smile*
MT: Well I have a headache out of this world I'm goin to lay down now Shawn I don't trust you around my daughter jus yet now she has forgiven you and i know thats all that matters but this is my daughter and nothin better not happen between now and when I get up
Bey: Ma please *sits up* everything is fine we're jus watchin tv and he's gonna help no matter what
Jay: Yes I am she's still my wife and I did this so I will fix this
MT: Fine Bey I'm in my room
Bey: Kay ma goodnite love you
MT: *kisses Bey on the forehead* love you more *and she went to her room*
Bey: Shawn
Jay: Yes *rubbing her back*
Bey: Will you stay the night and hold me like you used to
Jay:*shocked she even asked that* Certainly baby
Bey: Thanks I missed that alot
*they watched tv in the living room til the movie went off then Jay carried her to her room helped her bathe the laid her in the bed he went to his car and got a change of clothes (men always keep clothes in the car) and he showered and laid in bed with her watching Kill Bill. Jay fell asleep holding Bey jus like she asked. Half was thru the night Bey awoke from her dream in which she was walking on stage again. the dream had spoke to her and she felt different when awoke. She knew what she had to do. Jay was knocked out next to her so she sat herself up and scooted to the edge of the bed(she has a temper pedic so Jay couldn't feel her move. When she got to the edge she swung her legs to the edge of the bed*
Bey: *You can do this Bey you can do this you can do all things thru Christ which strengthens you* I can do this *she whispered as she stood for the first time in 4 1/2 months* I'm doin this I am *she screamed* JAY OMG JAY WAKE UP MAMA, SOLO GET UP NOW!!!! *she yelled*
Jay:*shot up* WHAT WRONG OMG BEYONCE WHAT ARE YOU DOIN
*jus then Mama Tina, Solo, and Alan all ran in her room*
EVERYONE: OMG ITS A MIRACLE
omg , i love this post it was funny and emotional .. *sigh* i love them soooo much .. miracles are a blessing
ReplyDeletebtw my name Miracle . (: lol
Ooh yay next post please!
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